“My father always told me to see the best in people” this is a dialogue from a fantastic movie – The Great Gatsby. Growing up I’ve had many struggles in life which has shaped me as an adult and as a result, developed the way I respond in any situation. I have anxiety. I care too much about what people think of me and how they will react to any of my actions towards them. I never consider whether they ever put two thoughts into how their actions might impact me (this is strictly speaking in scenarios that we’ve talked about or discussed).

A very long time ago, I had told myself, that no matter what, I will not be a **** to anyone. No, this blog isn’t about tooting my own horn. But rather about what an eye-opener 2020 was for me learning about people’s behaviour. That may sound vague, but allow me to explain.

People are selfish. We only see our convenience but don’t actually stop to think about how in the process of conveniencing ourselves, we are inconveniencing the other person or people. For some, it may the need to validate their ideas and show that’s better than yours, as a result, demoralising you and making you doubt yourself and your abilities. For others it may be, getting everything at the tip of their finger whilst making someone else run around like a headless chicken organising everything.

I had often heard the term ‘genuine person’ not knowing what it means. Today, I can say that I know what it means. Why can’t people just be honest and lay things out the way it should be said? Why put someone else down to make yourself feel validated? Why force your opinion on someone else?

This year, I want to learn to let go. I want to learn to switch off and not let little things of people influence my mood and well-being. It’s not worth it.

MiliG