Poems

In recent times, as I’ve dealt with anxiety, I have found other ways of expressing myself. I have often said, that I find writing helps me say things that I wouldn’t usually say in a conversation. I surprise myself too sometimes, when I re-read the blogs that I’ve written regardless of the topic. I come across phrases, sentences, words, that I don’t use in my day to day language but somehow it’s ended up in a blog.

Coming back on track, over the past couple of months, as part of my anxiety what I’ve been struggling with is having strong emotions. I find that I have no control over what I feel and how I’m feeling. No matter how much of a pep talk I give myself, or say that you know it’s okay, this is the situation that you are manifesting in your head, but this isn’t the reality. This could be far from reality. Sometimes, I momentarily make the feeling fade away, only for it to pop up again. The only way of releasing it, and getting a sense of relief is when I let it out.

The letting out part doesn’t always come in the form of talking to someone. Actually, I find when you’re talking to someone you might downplay it. The better way that seems to work for me, is to write  it out. It started out as a freak accident when I first wrote my anxiety related poem. Why a freak accident you may ask? Well, I tried typing up a journal on the notes app on my iPhone. I found that to be too confronting (and more than anything cringy). I just couldn’t connect with it. Instead of helping me heal, it just made it weird.

I took a different approach. I just typed a few lines, without intending it to be a poem. To be honest, I don’t even know if I’d call them poems, it’s just the term that seems to fit. I’m sure there might be a more appropriate term for it.

Here’s the million dollar question however. I have written maybe 3 or 4 of these. Would you want to read these? Let me know yes or no in the comments.

Until next time,

MiliG